Melody hanging in my head

Hello, I come across this road again. And it feels the same every time I go through it. The familiarity, the peace feeling that comes with it, relaxing, and makes me somehow feel that this live is worth living. But it also spark a thought in my mind. Am I do it the right way?

Blame my zodiac. They said Virgo’s wants everything looks perfect. It bugs me every time I feel that I’m not doing something in the proper way. But I don’t know for how many times now, I just want something different. I want to compromise. I no longer want this to be perfect. I want to let my flaws be seen. To be known by other people. So others can tell me where did I do wrong.

Oh God. We have this talk again, finally. I’m so lucky I can encounter this holy month again this year. Even if I’m in the different territory now. But you know me best, right? You know that I love change therefore you’ve created so many surprises in my life. And as strong as I believe that your grace are unlimited, I believe that I might be wrong in some ways that are invisible from my sight.

But in which part do I left behind? I wish you could leave me with surprising viewpoints. I might be too numb all this time. I might be feel so right til’ I forgot that there are some other truths that I didn’t realize just yet.

I think it was a reminder from you that I encounter this passage in an article just few days ago. It says that, “Refuse to ask for help, no matter how much you’re struggling, is a sign of emotional immaturity. Asking for helps means that you no longer feel like you have something to prove by being perfect.” It resonate so well in my head until now. It feels like a bell ringing to wake me up. It’s annoying, but that is the right thing. It prevent us to freeze in our position. It leads to change. It’s a call. So yeah, let’s change. (: