Life is a bumpy ride. Hang on tight, always.

As I sit on the train on my way back to hometown couple days ago, I’m pondering over everything that happened this year. Everything seems to move so fast. Like, I never thought that they would happen all at once this year. I got my first full time job and resign from it on the same year. Mbak Ika is getting married in February. Nurul was got engaged in November. Me?

Hmm, I can’t really recall my best moment of this year. Well, I’ve crossed some items of my bucket list, but it’s just typically me. Dreaming about it is always waaay more enjoyable than experience it on real life.

I used to think that I could be braver as I grow older. But so far I realized that the insecurity is growing even bigger as we aged. You know every book, every article, or some else’s stories that I have read, trying to understand how this world is operating. You know sometimes all of them feels like useless. Because in the end, we still need to figure out the answers of this infinite questions of life ourselves.

But human is just like that. I always think that I have a very unique personality. But I sometimes still caught me compare my life with the standard of others. Which of course, hurt me at some points. But obviously, I’m just lost at that time. That’s why I come back here to restore my sanity.

Because life is just like the time. It’s relative so we can’t use the same measurement.

Oh, I love whenever I have this kind of feeling. This downfall moment like this, makes me feel balance. And top of everything, I’m just a human like others, right? (: